Cried for you again today

Tim,
With everything that’s going on around here, I find you in my thoughts more and more. I watch M.A.S.H just about everyday. I think of Hawkeye and BJ as you and me. You know how tight they were and how they played jokes on one an another, its a lot like we were. Just got through watching the final episode - again. Then it hit me right at the end, as Hawkeye was getting into the chopper and BJ, was getting on his bike, they got to do something, that I was unable to do with and for you. That was to say “Goodbye”. Yes, I was there for your funeral and all that, but I didn’t get to say Goodbye. That still bugs the hell out of me. Well, I had a good cry - yet again. Thank you very much. You Asshole!
Well, tomorrow I am having the BBQ to tell everyone we are going to Oregon. Going to be an interesting next few days as the word spreads. We are really excited about coming back to Bend. One of the first things, we are going to do once we get there, besides unload the truck - you couldn’t get me on that one - we are going to go see you. I am so looking forward to that, I hope to be able to spend some time with you. Maybe that will help me with your passing too. I don’t know. But we will see.
I need you to do me a favor if you can. Assuming you have gotten through processing, and you haven’t pissed off the big G. As you know, we are leaving in the 12th of Nov, I will have planned out as much as I can, but I need to watch over us, and help us make to Bend without any problems. If you could give us a hand with that, making sure we make it safe and sound, I would really appreciate it.

Hey, I saw your favorite character the other day at the car show. Gonna try and find him somewhere are put him out in your back yard.

I can here you in the back of my mind, saying move on dude. I know I know! Face it, I love you man, and it’s hard not having you around. You are my best friend, and without you I am a little lost. I am still working hard, probably to hard, but what else is new. You have a lot of people that love, and just because you are not hear, doesn’t make us love you less. It’s just harder not having you around.

Since I am letting the cat out of the back Saturday, I can talk more freely with you know. I know you know what I am saying when I am being cryptic.

I love you man and miss you terribly.

Kiss the dog, spank someone, would say God, but I am not sure that’s a good idea.

Love,
Rusty